Remembering today one of my all time favorite worship songs. Its "Take me in" and I think that Kutless sings it. It was my favorite in highschool. It was what I lived for. What I wanted of my life. To be in the presence of the Lord. To go into the Holy of Holies without bondage. Past all the religion past the fakeness past everything and into the heart of God. Into the holy place. To go in by the blood of the lamb and show those that they could get in to. That the veil had been torn. There is freedom in Christ. I dreamed of making a difference. I dreamed of helping awaken a generation. I longed to see the abandoned, the hurt, the neglected find hope. I desired to show them a way to release that abandonment into worship. To show them the heartbeat of the Father. To let them know that they are priceless. To see this town radically changed. To see the veil over this town ripped and the bondage of religion broken off. To be a voice. To make a difference. To show Jesus to those around. To see this town healed. To see an outlet for the kids of this town. to see an equipping center. People coming here to be sent out. People coming to this town to find out what this freedom is. To see why the violence rate went down. To see why the schools are no longer filled with drugs and alcohol but filled with the love of Christ.

I gave all that away when people hurt me. I ran from God and now the longings and desires of Him are still etched so deeply within that it seems my life will not be what I want or even happy as it could be unless I step back into that purpose and into those dreams and into the woman He saw when He created me. Its time to get back on track. No more playing around, no more pretending.