looking for direction...

Right now I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I'm going to school with a major in biology just because I like biology and that's the only thing that really interests me. I've been back in my hometown for a little over 2 months now and its so great to be back.

Since I've been back I've been fighting a few things in my life.The past couple weeks I have been praying and seeking God out on a lot of stuff I'm dealing with right now. I really felt the urge to go back through my journals I started to journal and draw in 2005. In looking through them I have found some interesting stuff. A lot of stuff that I had forgotten that were spoken to me. Dreams and visions and prophecies that the Lord had given me. In reading some of it I would just begin weeping. Remembering how much in love with my king that i was I am ashamed at how I have forsaken that for what I thought was better.

so here I am in a Podunk town way down south Georgia. I really feel the Lord urging me into ministry with the teens and college age students. The kids here have nothing to do no outlet. They sit around in different parking lots or better yet random fields doing all types of things that is leading to their destruction. I see the state of the kids in this city and it just breaks my heart. Something needs to be done. We have so many churches and kids who go to church but they don't know Jesus. I really feel like there needs to be a central ground a place where the religion just falls away.Where they can come as they are and end up washed by Jesus. a place where they feel safe, a place where they don't have to worry about being abandoned but they can abandon themselves to Christ. To prepare the leaders of this generation. To awaken a mighty generation. For the Bible belt to be destroyed and turned into a ring of fire.

This is something that the Lord has been showing me for a while now but I haven't felt like little me could do anything about it. In a vision the Lord gave me about a year ago, He was showing me some things, a lot I still dont understand and some that have become more clear in the past year.

This vision occurred at the call Nashville on july 7th 2007 when 300 shofars were being sounded. before those 300 were sounded, there was a single shofar being sounded. it was sounded 6 times before the rest joined in. I believe that the Lord was showing me through this that He wants me to sound an alarm be His voice for those who have no voice as a wakeup call to the church to bring repentance and change or judgment to the body of Christ concerning the things on His heart, His children. I know there are a lot all over and they are sounding alarms in their cities, their states and nations.

I feel like this firstly is a call to sound an alarm for my city. There is this one place, an old building that has been empty for years and eveytime I pass it espically on a friday or saturday night I can just see hundreds of kids leaving the field parties, the parking lots and coming here having their lives radically changed by the hand of Jesus and never going back to their old ways. I can see them in the parking lot waiting and praying. Inside worshipping completely abandoned to the Lord.

There is so much potential here and we can already see it in some of pastors of the churches binding together and the young people could really care less who goes to what church If we all bind together as one. as the body of Christ, people can be set free, we can see deliverance, miracles the gangs becoming less of a problem. If the church here stopped worrying about themselves and their religious ideals and their little god in the box things could happen, the Real God, The Living God would show up and shake everything that can be shaken. but before the church can go out and preach repentance, they need repentance within themselves.