the Embrace

we are in a generation who need an embrace from God. its not about the touch that the generation before us. its not about the religion or the legalism. its about the embrace. the relationship, the acceptance of the Father. This generation has experienced so much abandoment, rejection, hyprocracy and a lot of it coming from the church.Its time for something more, something real, something deep. Im going deeper. No matter what. no more comprimise from me. thats all the past 2 and years has been about. comprimise. conforming to the "christians" around me b/c i was a freak for wanting something so much deeper. well you know what. label me a freak. i dont care anymore. call me one of those weirdos, one of those extremist evangelicals. it doesnt bother me. Im going to go as far as i can. be as abandonded as possible for my King. He is who I live for. Not organized religion, not a denomination, not a movement, but the King of Kings. He is my Creator and He is my God. He is who I serve. If i have to give up all of my selfish desires, all of my plans for my future for His will. so be it. if that means i have to release one of the things I want most out of my life then so be it. I will be able to serve my God better. I've been told I was recklessly abandonded to my God and to never let that go.. I did. I laid aside who I was for somethng I thought I had to have just to realize that it doesnt matter. running away from who I am will never solve anything. It will just make me miserable and lonely while surrounded with amazing friends. You cant fix a gaping wound in someone's heart with a bandaid.... you cant put a square peg in a round hole to fill it completely.... its time for me to take that bandaid off. to let healing flow. to let go of the pain of not having that great Daddy figure that is very much needed in a little girls life to let go of the fear of being rejected by my God because I'm not worthy. Because you know what... I am worthy, because "He who knew no sin became sin that we might become the righteousness of God" get that... we are the righteousness of God.... through Christ we are worthy. I am His beloved, His daughter, His princess.... yeah I am royality and my Daddy is the King above all kings...